HKL Diaries 3

Yeap.. still about the days in hospital.
Just a short one this time.
Alhamdulillah finished my second week of practicle in HKL.
Just another 2 days next week before I end.


So, in the second week I learnt a lot of things too. 
Often, I'll be in the 'Treatment Room' to watch the procedure performed by doctors and nurses. It's great to have the privilege to enter this room since you cannot simply enter the room. Even parents are restricted to be in that room while their child are being examined due to some reasons.


Among procedures perform in the treatment room are such as taking blood sample and set line for infusion. What is more challenging is that doctors have to perform this on babies or small kids who have a very delicate vein and the child cannot stay still. Crying is just part of the procedure. Some times it can take up to hours just to get blood sample. Just pity those children since they have to be pricked by the needle many and many times just to get it right.


One of the procedure that I manage to see last time is bone marrow aspiration (BMA). 
It was something like this. 
It was performed on a 2 months old, Malay boy.Imagine how small he is. It took about 5 to 6 times before the doctor can aspirate the blood. The baby of course was crying until he do not have enough energy to cry anymore. I can only hear his tiny little voice that describe the pain. The procedure is  performed in a sterile condition. It looks like a small operation though. This last for about an hour. 


On this second week also, I meet with another case of neglected child. This time was a three year old indian girl. She was admitted with small wounds all over her body. Her body showed a sign of malnutrion. When touching her shoulder I can only feel her scapula. No fat at all. Just bone underlying the skin. She was really thin. She had problems with her right leg; with some hip fracture a few months ago. Therefore she can't walk. She was very quiet and talk very softly. 
But there is one time when I play with her, that she laugh with joy. Never see her like that before. :) She was very comel indeed. 


After all, every day was very tiring for me that made me quite slow in doing my other works. huhu... This is just a few things that I had to do before facing the real job in the future. Be STRONG please <talking to myself>










Keep on holding tight to HIM

HKL Diaries 2

Alhamdulillah. Completed my first week of practical at HKL. The 4th and 5th days were quite common. Nothing much to be said. It just that, in the hospital, I can see gathering of stories of people from different background.

When taking the patient medical history, you'll got to know a bit about the family histories as well.  Sometimes when I got nothing to do, I just approach the patients' mother and ask questions. At first it was medically related and suddenly the topic changed. It depends on who do you talk to and how.

Actually I wanted to write a story about three siblings that I met in the ward that I am on duty. I'll be missing them for sure. It was my first time met with such kids. They are neglected child. When I first got to know their name, I said, 'wah, sedapnya nama budak2 ni'.


They were admitted to the hospital on last Monday(in the evening). When I arrived in the ward on the second day of my practical, I saw the three kids were still lying on the bed; sleeping, wondering what sickness they are suffered from. I am curious to know about them, until later that I knew they are not sick.

I listened to the HO who took their medical history. It's quite interesting to see how to take history from small patient. You need to use their language. :) Actually those kids came from a problematic family. Maybe its kinda completed to write it here. But I think it's enough to know that this are only one of many other cases of its kind that I got the chance to meet with.


Theses three kids are very active. They are quite grown up but their physical do not really represent their age. They are differ by each other by one year.  Listening to how they speak between each other told me about the way they are treated at home. Children are easily influence by their environment that it is important to ensure conducive education for them since small.
I spent much of the time talking to them. Hoping that they can become a good person in the future. 

I asked them a few questions about Islam. Just seeking how deep is their knowledge in it and wanted to instill their interest. Among the topics that I asked are like, solah, the 5 pillars, who is God, the prophets, etc. Glad that they are positive about it and one of them;the eldest liked to hear the Prophet's stories. But, my bad for not having much stories to tell.

This evening, I wave them a good bye for they are going to be discharge. They will be taken by some sort of welfare center to be taken care of. Hope I have the chance to meet them again in the future. 

I ended the first week, spending times with this three kids. Wondering what the other two weeks will be filled up with.  Just pray hard that the children will become a well-grown up person insyaAllah.


Keep on holding tight to HIM

HKL Diaries

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

One of the requirement in my 2nd year study of medicine is to perform nursing clinical training for 3 weeks (@150 hours) . We can either complete this in Czech or perform it in our hometown.  I chose to make it here in Malaysia since I need to come back early this summer to settle a few things.

So, I applied for my elective posting in HKL about 3 months before I came back in July.(It is actually not that complicated to apply elective posting at HKL. Just go to the website and you'll find the link for elective posting application. Just follow the instruction there). Alhamdulillah, my application was accepted and I am going to Paediatric department in HKL (as requested).

Finally, it was time for me to start the practical that will last for three weeks (11 July -29 July). On the first day, I went to the office first to set up the arrangement and followed a few procedure. The office located at the main building of HKL and luckily it was not that hard to find.

I went to the hospital every morning with my abah since his office is quite near to HKL. Alhamdulillah again.. can save the cost of travelling but I have to wake up as early as 5 am every day ^^.


Just one interesting thing on the first day, while waiting at the 'waiting area' at the A&E department before I headed of to the office; I noticed a foreigner sit in front of me. He was waiting for someone and slept on the chair. Then, when he woke up, a pak cik went on to greet him. Here was the dialogues goes:

Pakcik(P): Hi, how are you? What do you do here so early in the morning?
Foreigner(F): I'm waiting for my friend. 
P: Ouh.. where are you from?
F: I am from Czech Republic, Europe.
... and the chatting goes on.
I just smile. What a small world!!:)


At first, I thought I will do the practical alone. But when I arrived at the office, I saw many other students whom are actually were about to start their practical as well. But most of them are already in their 4th and 5th year of studies. 

We were instructed to gather in a meeting room (with the round table) and wait for the Doctor who is in charge in the arrangement of student elective posting in HKL to give some briefing. Dr. Ding told us to introduce our place of study since everyone comes from different places; Russia, Czech, Dublin, Aberdeen. They are about 15 students all together in the meeting room. 

Quoted from Dr. Ding, she said, I always learn Geography here. :) Students nowadays comes from different places. So, this is your chance to learn from others. And, my message to you, be open minded to see what's here for you.  ASK if you do not know. No one is here is paid to teach you. So, grab the opportunity to LEARN as much as you can.
Anyhow, the session with Dr. Ding was full of messages and gives an overview about career as a doctor in Malaysia. 

Next, together with me who will also doing practical in Paediatric department are another 2 students, currently studying in Russia. They were in second year as well and thus our level of knowledge are kind of the same. At least I have someone to talk to and work with along the practical... Alhamdulillah.


On the first day, only at about 11am we went to the paediatric department after settling at the office. Me and another friend were assigned to KK6 ward. At first, we met with the head nurse of the ward and she gave us a short briefing about the ward background. 


After that, we were free to go anywhere around the ward. It should be our own initiative to find any works in the ward since no one will supervise us. We are free to go for break,lunch and can go back at any time (the nurse however suggest us to stay up to 5pm). Usually I stay until around 2pm. We were given this student pas that allowed us to move around the hospital.

All students who do their elective posting were required to wear the white coat. In the ward, you'll see most of the people are with the white coat and they are consultants, MO, HO, and students like us. And everyone is addressed as doctor. :)
So, to be called as doctor in the first place was a bit weird since I am only in my 2nd year.


Plus, being in this ward for kids, the kids will always address you as doctor due to the white coat that you wear. =) And sometimes I feel like being in the nursery since there is too many kids, with all the babies crying and child running.


Most of the case reported in KK6 ward usually related with infectious diseases, skin diseases, and general cases. And seeing all the patients are among kids of younger age reflect to me that how grateful one should be. Each kid are look after by their own mother/father. Sometimes kids of upper age are accompanied by their big sister or brother. 


Up to the third day, I've seen variety of cases everyday. I am quite exhausted during the day. Not because of  much of work doing, but because I have to stand most of the time. Wonder how it will be when I have to do my houseman later.


On the ward today, me and my friend manage to follow the ward round by the consultant and HOs. We listened on how HOs need to present the cases to the consultant, the follow up questions and many more. If before this, I always heard that HO being scolded most of the time. But I do not see such thing yet so far. But I think the consultant are trying to educate the HOs well enough, and scolding in a good manner may be one of the way.


During the session, I realised that, although if you've already become a HO, it doesn't mean that you know everything. Experience and willingness is all what it takes to be more competent in this medical field. 


I am impressed by the consultants that I made this morning. They are very low profile and treat everyone well. Even manage to make joke and make the learning relax and enjoyable. mm.. maybe, that is what I felt. I'm not sure if the feeling maybe different in a place of a house-officer.


There is too much to write I think. Hope to write more next time, with more and more stories. 


I'm thinking of how my days will be in the future. How can I cope with the busyness to perform dhuha in the morning. How to attend usrah weekly. Do I have time to check emails. Time with families. and time to write something like this. 
also, how to create the 'environment' in the hospital...
too much of work yet, that's what a daie have to do right.. 

lets make dua', may Allah make it easy for everyone insyaAllah


-appreciating things around


Keep on holding tight to HIM

Procrastinate?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

It had been a few weeks already that I've been in Malaysia. Always wanted to share something here. Share what I had gone through all this while and many more. But the things just kept in my mind. Hard enough to throw it into a written form. But the idea is there. 

One thing that I can share for now, use every single chance that you have to give out the best out of yourselves; for you may not have any chance at all after that if you procrastinate. This apply to all situations that you may come across in your life. Try to think once again. In any occasion, what will happen if you plan to procrastinate what you should really do at that particular time? Will you meet that that kind of situation again at any other time. Usually things do not happen as we wish. So, do what you think is right and don't think of procrastination.

-talking to myself



Keep on holding tight to HIM

Kenapa takde orang bagi tahu aku?

Kenapa dulu kau tak cakap kat aku?

Kenapa dulu kau tak bagi tau kat aku yang benda ni salah?

Kenapa tak pernah cuba tarik aku daripada buat benda2 jahiliah tu?

Tahu tak.. Kadang-kadang tu aku sedar je aku buat silap. Tapi aku susah nak tinggalkan apa yang aku buat. Sebab aku rasa benda tu best. Aku rasa seronok. Semua ni buat aku lela dan lalai eventhough aku tahu yang aku tengah buat dosa. Aku rasa gembira. Aku tak rasa bersalah pun.

Aku tahu la kau budak baik. Tak buat apa yang macam aku buat ni. Tak kawan sangat dengan budak-budak laki. Kau senang la sebab kau memang jenis yang macam tu. Tapi aku lain. Aku ada life aku sendiri.Aku dah biasa hidup macam ni. Aku bahagia dengan life aku sekarang. Kawan-kawan semua sayang kat aku. Aku ada ramai kawan yang satu kepala dengan aku. Kitorang memang selalu hang out sama-sama. Dah macam satu family.

Tapi…

Kenapa… Kenapa aku tak sedar lagi. Kan apa yang aku buat ni salah. Kau bukan nak tegur aku. At least kalau kau pernah bagi tahu kat aku dulu, takde la aku hanyut sampai jauh macam ni. Sekarang ni, dah terlewat dah untuk aku bertaubat.. Kenapa kau tak cuba tarik aku sungguh2 dulu. Kau suka ke tengok aku dengan life aku yang tak betul ni?

Bila nyawa ni dah bercerai dari badan, apa lagi yang boleh aku buat? Aku dah tinggalkan dunia. Menunggu masa untuk hari pembalasan tiba. Menunggu masa untuk diazab di akhirat. MasyaAllah… takutnya!! Time ni la baru nak ingat kat Allah. Menyesalnya dengan apa yang aku buat kat dunia dulu. Kenapa tak pernah ada orang yang cuba nak tarik aku daripada masuk api neraka? Atau adakah aku je yg keras kepala sangat sampai tak pernah sedar apabila ditunjukkan dengan jalan kebenaran..?

Apa aku nak buat sekarang ni. Aku sedar ke tak? Wahai diri, kau tahu tak kenapa engkau diciptakan kat dunia ni? Ke kau tak pernah tahu? Kalau diberi peluang, engkau nak tak kembali ke jalan yang benar? Jalan yang sepatutnya engkau ikut..

Mampu ke aku? Aku takut tak dapat nak istiqamah. Aku takut kalau aku rindukan life aku yang dulu. Aku takut aku tak boleh nak survive sorang2. Macam mana dengan kawan2 aku yang selalu hang out dengan aku dulu. Aku sayang sangat nak tinggalkan diorang. Diorang yang selalu jaga aku dulu.

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"Chill out what you yelling' for?

Lay back it's all been done before

And if you could only let it be

You will see…"

Lagu Avril Lavinge berkumandang memecah keheningan pagi itu. Alarm hanset dimatikan.

"MasyaAllah, dah pukul 7! Aku tak subuh lagi ni..

Eh, jap. Aku mimpi apa ye tadi? Takpe2. Solat dulu..," monolog Anis sendirian.

Usai solat, Anis termenung panjang. Memikirkan apa yang dimimpikannya tadi.

Mimpi itu sangat memukul dirinya.

"Aku tak sedar lagi ke?" dia terus bermonolog.

Berfikir, merefleksi diri….

p/s: after viewing pictures of some friends on fb, i've thought of this...

cant say more...